Warning: Spoilers, if you haven't read anything about Bertholdt on his wiki or
in the managa, please do not read this if you don't want anything to be spoiled.
Minor sexual things,and spoilers. again.
You sighed taking a deep breath, it was dark, cold, quit, and creepy. It was almost as
if there wasn't a single living thing outside.. No crickets, no birds cherping, no
children playing outside, no one sitting outside rocking in a chair..You could hear
your heart pounding and your own breath freezing in the cold air. Winter was near,
snow was starting to fall and collect itself a blanket all over town. You wrapped
yourself in your jacket, starting to walk again looking around, the sound of your feet
smashing into the small bit of snow on the ground; not noticing the sound of footsteps
behind you. A hand landed on your shoulder, causing you to jump in fear. "(Name).."
you heard a familiar voice say, causing you to turn around and see the tall boy who've
you had a crush on since Military Training started. "(name).." you heard the voice say
again, noticing you zoned out. "Bert! Never sneak up on me like that again, I almost
had a heart attack." you said jokingly looking up at him. He smiled grabbing your arm
causing you to look up to him in confusion. "Hmm?" you hummed looking up at the taller
one. "You look cold..You shouldn't be out here this late, (name), a lot of thugs hang
around at night and it isn't safe for you to be alone." Bertholdt said taking his
jacket off and warping it around you, sounding a bit worried.
"I just wanted to take a walk and enjoy the quietness..You should take your jacket back, you'll freeze, I'm fine really." You replied looking up at him. He sighed.
"Well, I'll fix that."
"Hmm?" you hummed at his reply as he pulled the jacket off of you and pulled your back close to his chest. "Whhaaa~? What are you doi-" "Lift your arms up (Name)." He said
interrupting your question. You did as he said and he slipped the jacket on his and your arms and trying to zip it up. "Bert.." You said trying not to laugh at his actions. "Now we'll both keep warm and won't get sick~" He said resting his head on your shoulder; you blushed and starting to walk, only to cause both of you to fall.
"Well, atleast we'll be warm together.." you said trying to stand up. "Y-yeah..Hey (Name), I have a question." He said as he pushed you and him up off the ground.
"What is it, Bert?"
"Well, I was wondering about something."
"What were you wondering about?"
You felt a blush appear on your face as those words came out of his mouth.
"W-what a-abot me...?"
"Well, I've liked you for awhile now, and I was wondering if you might have the same feelings for me?"
Your face was now competently red, did he really just ask that? Was this really happening? Did he really just confess to you?
"Well..?" He said questioning you.
"Yes! Well uhh...I d-do l-l-like you, but more than um uh friends...."
You felt your body freeze a bit, did those words just slip from your mouth?
"Well, you like me, I like you..~Maybe we can be more than just friends~"
He stated kissing the side your neck; you felt his warm breath press against your neck, his chapped lips moving as he spoke,..it was amazing to you..
"May-maybe we can be..~"
------ 3 hours later -----------
You two managed to get back to the cabins, stumbling and laughing as you guys tried to walk.
"Shhhh, everyone's probably asleep." he said quitly unzipping the jacket and pulling his arms out and streching them the best he could still glued to your back till you took your arms out of the jacket also.
You smiled at him as he sat down on the ground up against one of the cabins.
"We should get to bed." He said looking up at you, standing up towering you once again.
"Night, (name)." He said bending down kissing your lips with passion, you smiled a tad under the kiss, kissing him back as he pulled back.
"Night, Bert.." You said hugging him.
-------- 2 months later ---------
You were on the wall checking the cannons with Sasha, Connie, Reiner, and a few others. Bertholdt was probably told to do something else with the others you thought.
Everything seemed so good and jolly, but before you knew it all you could see was dust, and your back was in pure pain. What happened? you thought to yourself, as you looked up to see the Titan who broke down the wall 5 years ago, your eyes widened, you couldn't move, your body was in pain, and you were in to much shock. Where was your hero when you needed him most..? You looked up the titan with pure terror in your face, you knew this was it, you were done, you were going to die by a titan..But you've seen the titans before, how they ate people just like you'd eat a sweet piece of cake, you were never scared, to you we were all going to die one day, so why not just meet Death sooner than you should? Your face became soaked, your screams were silent as your thoughts, you face was rosy red but your face only showed pure terror, you were most likely surrounded by titans and nothing else, this was your last day to see the sunrise, and yesterday was your last sunset..
Soon as the smoke cleared you couldn't see the titan anymore, he was gone, no titans were around you, your sobs slowed..You vision cleared, you saw something..
A human figure, it looked a familiar, he emerged from the Titan..He was running towards you..Bertholdt, he was here.
He grabbed you up in his arms and got to a 'safer' area for the time being.
"(name)..Are you okay?" his voice full of worry. But all you could hear were screams of people, innocent people, screams of your friends..All you could see was Bert's body coming from the titans body..This wasn't real, the Bertholdt you knew would never hurt
a fly, why would he bust down the wall? "(Name)..Answer me!" he said his voice getting more and more worried. Soon it hit you, this wasn't a dream, this all was real, and the person you Loved was a monster..
"H-how could you?!"
"(Name), it's not what you think..I swear."
"B-but it is....! Y-you broke down the wall 5 years ago, caused all those innocent
peoples lives..! And you did it again! Why would you do this Bert?"
He frowned a bit, bringing you into a hug. You tried to protest against the hug by pushing back, but your body was in pain and Bert was stronger than you..Tears filled your eyes again as you cried once again, you sobs being muffled by his chest.
"W-why..." you said once again punching his shoulder, but it did nothing, you were
inlove with him, he made you feel better, but now..now it was different.
You hated him, you wanted nothing to do with him, but one side of you wanted his body of comfort, he's soft voice, warm voice that would calm you when you were scared or in
doubt..What was happening to you? Why couldn't you simply just hate him like
you wanted to..?
His arms wrapped tightly around you, his head laying on top of yours, his voice saying
sweet nothings of apology to you...
"(Name), do you hate me..?"
' Yes. ' you wanted to say so badly but couldn't..
"N-no.." Why were you saying these things..?
"I love you, (Name)..Just promise me you'll never tell anyone about me..If you do they'll kill you.."
'They'll' ? There's more like him....
"I love you too...and I promise.."
He kissed your head as your sobs got more and more louder..You were inlove with a monster, you wanted to kill him but you couldn't, why?
-------5 weeks later--------
Bertholdt laid peacefully in your lap asleep..It killed you in the inside, having him here, kissing him every night, letting him take away your virginity, letting him pretty much kill your friends..
Marco, Mina, Thomas and a lot of others died that day, but all the citizens got to the
inner wall safely which was good...At least they didn't die in vain..
Now was your chance, he was asleep, he couldn't stop you, your blades were right
there, you could end it here and now.. Your eyes got filled of tears once again as you
slowly grabbed one of your blades trying not to waken Bert. You tried not to allow
your sobs to be loud and heard..All these memories of him pouring into your head as
you held the blade to his chest, your eyesight getting blurred from all the tears flowing down your face landing in Bert's hair
"Well, I've liked you for awhile now, and I was wondering if you might have the
same feelings for me?"
"(Name)~" You heard the voice of your lover as he came up from behind kissing you.
"I love you, I won't let anything hurt you, I promise.."
"Promise me you'll never tell anyone about me.."
"It'll only hurt for a few minutes, I promise..If it hurts to much I'll stop, I don't ever want to hurt you, (Name)"
"We'll get through this together, I'll be with you every step of your way no matter what happens."
"Lies... they're all lies...!"
You said slamming the blade into Bert's chest, blood splattering everywhere. Your sobs
got louder as you were unable to hold them in anymore..Mikasa and Sasha running into
the blood covered room, their eyes wide as Sasha screamed in terror..
"B-bertholdt....I'm..I'm sorry..." You said laying you head against his chest on the
wound, more and more tears falling down your face, your feelings mixed..
"(N-name).." You heard a voice say in pain. You looked up to see Bert's eyes half closed, his face covered in the same amount of blood as yours..Time seemed to have froze. He was dying, why were you not happy? Isn't that what you wanted..? You grabbed the other blade holding it above him, and slamming it into his body, killing him..You
weren't sad, you were over comed with anger but not anger, what were you doing..?, You
remembered how many times he had lied to you..How he let those titans in who killed Marco, your childhood friend..
Mikasa grabbed your arm jerking you back away from Bertholdt's body, everyone pouring
into the cabin to see Bert's dead body you covered in blood sobbing.
"What happened here?!" Reiner said walking up to Bert's body.
"He killed himself." Mikasa said looking over at Sasha who was about to protest to what Mikasa said.
You looked over at her, why did she say that? She saw you kill him..
"He wouldn't do that!" Reiner yelled walking over to Mikasa and you, towering you both.
"I saw him do it, so didn't Sasha and (Name)." Mikasa said with a stright face. Reiner
looked over at Sasha as she nodded to him, before he looked over at you.
------Later that day--------
You sat there on your bed, eyes wide, and bags formed under eyes. You looked as if
you've been face to face with a ghost..All you could think about was Bert saying your
name before you stabbed him again, you could still feel his blood on your face even
though Mikasa helped you shower and get cleaned up while Levi had the rest of the
girls clean up all the blood.
Mikasa walked into the cabin looking at you then going to the dresser to get her
clothes to change into.
"Why'd you lie..?"
She looked over at you again and walked up to your bed sitting on the edge.
"Ever since the attack on Trost you seemed as if Bertholdt was making you suffer, you didn't seem happy anymore. I'm sure you had a reason for doing what you did." She
remained so calm as she stood back up and started changing her clothes.
"Bertholdt was responsible for what happened to the walls..He was the titan.." Mikasa froze.
"Don't tell such lies, (Name)." Sasha interrupted.
"I'm not lying, when the wall busted down the second time I fell! I should of died from the fall but I didn't fall all the way down, something caught me, I didn't know what it was, it was to dusty..But then I fell again and hit the ground, but the impact only shocked my body for a few moments till the dust cleared and I saw Bert coming from the titans body.." You said looking down.
"Why did you not take action before? Or tell anybody?!!" Mikasa yelled causing you to
jump a bit, you've never seen her yell before..
"I-I promised I wouldn't tell anybody, and he said if I did tell they'd kill me.."
"They'd?" Sasha questioned.
"There's more?!" Mikasa yelled once again causing you to jump again.
You nodded. "But I don't know who they are.."
"You did what you needed to do then I guess.." Mikasa said taking a deep breath. "We
should get to bed."
You and Sasha both nodded, laying down in your beds.
You felt nothing but sweetness, you felt safe as you could feel the warmth of Bert's body, that feeling of hate towards him gone..
"(Name).." He'd say sweetly as you'd look up at him only to see his face filled with
blood, and two stab wounds on his chest, he looked terrible..Your eyes widened in
fear, as he'd say your name again. The smile on his face fading..
"Why'd you do this to me? We made a promise (Name)...We'd die together, we'd get out
of this alive..I thought you loved me.." He'd say as he'd reach his arm out to reach
for you as he walked closer to you.."I do love you, Bert..!" you'd say as you backed
up into a wall, you cried soon as you hit the wall, you pleaded for him to stop. He'd
keep walking, as he got closer to you he'd lay his hand on your cheek, he'd laid his
head up against your forehead. "You're lying. You hate me, you wanted me dead, isn't
that why you murdered me?" He'd say as his hands would lower to you neck and tighten
the grip. "Bertholdt, please don't do this! I love you, I promise" you sobbed as he
started to choke you. "You killed me..All I ever wanted to do is love you and make you
happy..But you were never happy..Now it's my turn." He'd say as you'd gasp for air.
"(Name)!" Sasha yelled causing you to wake up. "You were crying in your sleep, are you
You looked around rubbing your tears away.
"Where's Bert..?" You said looking at her, hoping what you did to him was just a
dream, even after what he did, you loved him, you don't understand why you felt so
misserble with him..or why you hated him anymore..
"(Name)..You k-killed him, remember..?"
At her words you sighed, knowing you'd never feel his arms around you again, never
hear his sweet soft voice again, his words that'd calm you down, his warm chapped lips
up against yours, his tongue inside your mouth as you'd wrapped your hands around his
"I love you, and even if I die before you, I know I'll see you again one day, and
if no ones beside you as your soul embarks I'll still be there, and I'll follow you
into what ever is out there, I love you (Name)..No matter what happens." His words
echoed inside your ears, maybe he isn't mad at you for what you did to him after all..